So here goes my first blog post …
14 days sober and I am knackered. I feel like I am pregnant again. Bloated tummy, constipated, weird dreams and so tired I don’t know what to do with myself.
But I am GUILT FREE for the first time in years!
I have taken a few days off work. Turned my emails off and I am having two mornings for just me.
Yesterday, I cuddled my new kitten Bluebell (bought as a surprise to make me relax by my hubby at the weekend) and watched trash TV until I picked my very emotional toddler up from nursery at lunchtime. Then back to the craziness, toddler tantrums, cheeky seven year old, dinner arguments and then football training, standing in the freezing rain and wind. But I got some time for me. And I was asleep by 9pm.
Today, I feel a bit more energetic. I have been for a short jog and had a shower then it’s time to make some healthy food to try and get over this lethargy.
I am actually feeling pretty good for not drinking overall and weirdly I am not finding it hard. My goal is to get to 100 days.
I am not a big drinker, most of my friends would describe me as a lightweight. But I am a regular drinker and I use it as a crutch. Which is really not good when you are on anti-depressants too.
Lately, I have been feeling myself getting more and more irritable, filled with self-loathing and shattered so I thought enough is enough. If I really want to get myself drug free, I need to tackle alcohol first … so here I am.
Big shout out to Clare Pooley (The Sober Diaries) and Claire Louise Owen on The Soberholics Group for keeping me going.
So now off to make some green juice (first time in years); tomoto soup and plan my resignation from work.
See you soon.
JR. x
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